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What MOSAC has meant to me

The abuser of my two children was an extremely charming, charismatic and highly intelligent man who, slowly over 12 years, made me feel as though I was mad. He used charm, manipulation and lies to destruct my relationship with my children, family and friends. By the time the abuse was disclosed, my children believed that I didn’t love them and they didn’t trust me at all. There was so much anger, upset and lies, that the house was a miserable place for us all. I was desperately trying to undo his hideous actions but didn’t know how and the children wouldn’t let me close to them.

I also had to cope with the counter allegations of the abuser. I was being investigated and I couldn’t believe all this was happening to us.

Friends and family all accused me of being negligent in some way of my children. Surely I should have known? There would have been signs? They have abandoned us gradually cutting off contact.

I was completely isolated, victimised and desperate. I contemplated suicide as I felt like a total failure as a mother. I thought I was having a nervous breakdown and I simply couldn’t cope. I had turned from a competent business woman and home maker into a gibbering wreck. I then found Mosac.

Mosac have offered me kind and understanding support from women who really understand the devastation and the terrible dynamics operating in cases of child sexual abuse: The destruction of trust, of loving relationships, of family and friend networks, the fear, despair and guilt. Mosac have made me feel that I am not alone, or mad and we can get through this as a family. I feel safe and understood at Mosac. I do not need to lie about how I feel and consequently I no longer suffer the same depression.

Mosac have also offered my youngest daughter Play therapy. She doesn’t like talking about the abuse and play is ideal for her to express herself. Mosac make this therapy child lead and my daughter is able to express herself to me in a place we BOTH feel safe and supported. We have therefore been able to open up to each other in a way we could not have done any where else. Our relationship is 100,000 times better and I feel as though she feels loved again. I know this process will be long and full of ups and downs but I also know that Mosac will be there with us for as long as it takes… not just a few months or limited number of sessions. That’s what’s really needed.

Thank you Mosac.

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